May my grandma rest in peace..
Time flies damn fast..
Too fast..
It's been 4 days since she's gone..
& the most saddening part is that none of us, family members were there when she was gone..
My first experience of a body with no heartbeat, no breath, no warmth.
She look no different from someone sleeping peacefully, only that she will never wake up.
& her hands were cold when ii hold them.. like when one's hand is cold in the aircon room, only that it will never get warm again.
It's good that she finally ends her 10 years of suffering.
But ii can't help being saddened..
& feelings run amok when we were at cremation place.
& truthfully ii dislike the buddhist monk the relative called.
ii was trying hard not to discriminate him but really.. ii
dislike him..
ii'd rather she is under my religion.
But what's done can't be undone.
Even though things were not done nicely.
I feel like everything is so shui bian.
haiix...
